Confusions as a new mother

The moment that I knew that I am going to be a new mother, there was an inner joy and along with that a BIG nagging worry – How am I going to raise this child in this contradicted world!

The world which when we are kids tells us that we must share, help each other and be a good girl or a good boy…  That same world, once we grow up tell us – “You fool be competitive. Don’t be sentimental”

When I was in school, I was told that while I am conversing, I must always say name last – e.g. “My mother, sister and me will be doing the cooking today”.

When I grew up and followed the above protocol, I was told “Why are you escaping from your responsibility and dumping everything on us?”

My inner me cries with confusion…

I remember telling my husband – “This world is very confusing. Let’s not bring two more lives into this confusion. Let’s adopt two and bring them up…”

But now that I have brought two children to this world…wish to do my bit in reducing this confusion and move to  world of joy.

MyOpenSkool.in is an endeavor I have taken up along with my dear friends as a personal responsibility to enrich the Schooling system

Me…My Inner World…

As I start to write this series, I wonder why I am doing this… is it really me?? me the lazy one?? me who is taking up this task…I also wondered how to start and where to start…but I decided that I must pen it down…

One of the core motivation to write is the increase in people having issues with Mental health and the increase in the number of children who are having such issues.

Is assigning a label to such patients under different mental diseases and giving them medications the only thing that we can do? Is that sufficient? Can we not do something more… I know it is very difficult...especially to understand what is happening with in them…I have been there and have experienced it first hand. And so thought I must do my bit.

Also I realise that there are many who are undergoing similar struggle in one dimension or the other…

The most challenging part of my journey as a Mother and a Parent was the non-stop war waging in my inner me…WAR ?!! For what???

Will be writing about the WARS which has now morphed into manageable activities. It is really amazing now and I am overwhelmed that the transition has happened when my kids are now teenagers – a stage when they are supposed to be unmanageable.

Yet another reason to blog about… for my predecessors…